I wear my heart on my sleeve
More often then not that sleeve gets torn
I’m always pulled in every direction possible
Work life be stressful
Pulling back on threads trying to hold on because that be a love of mine
Mental health counselor for half my life listening to kids tell me how daddy beat mommy
How Uncle Johnny or Aunt Sarah sneak in their rooms at night
How they’re too afraid to fall asleep because the gun shots don’t ever seem to cease
Ring Ring
Hello I’m sorry to call so late but I had no one else to call my mom got mad I didn’t clean the dishes and she put me and my 6mo daughter out can you please help me find a shelter
Ring Ring
Hey sorry I’ve been ignoring your calls but I’ve been so stressed from life that answering may have pushed me over the edge.
-last week I tried to kill myself I took a blade and I slit my wrist.
Ring Ring
Hello can you help me
Is what I hear every time I answer my work phone
But sometimes
SHIT probably more often than not do I feel like being the person on the other end of that line that screams
HELP ME
See I too am human regardless of my work title I too struggle from mental health issues that I speak to no one but my therapist
You wouldn’t know by looking at me
That I too was molested as a child
That I too had struggles of addiction
That I too have anger issues
That I too sometimes struggle with loving myself
You’d never know by looking at me that the same resources I share to my clients I also share to myself
You’d never know that I grew up poor
That I’ve lived in houses with no hot water and no windows or doors
That I slept on floors
That I’ve been homeless
That I was pregnant at fifteen
Became a mom a sixteen
You’d never know by looking at me
That I too have contemplated suicide
You’d never know by looking at me or even speaking to me that I can help another better than I can help myself
You’d never know that I too have been broken
See no matter how hard you try you could never write my story
You could never walk in my shoes because these shoes was custom made
Tailored to my width my length
And my strength
No matter how many times I fall down and scrape these knees I am determined to succeed
Determined to not be a product of my environment
A product of what I came from
I don’t live in the past because I know I could never change it
I don’t live in the future because tomorrow isn’t promise but I do live in the moment because that is one of the few things I can control
See my body tells a story that only I can read and the very few I’ve taught my language and for every new chapter I’ll paint a new picture
This is me
-just part of my story as Ms Lee
But when you look at me
-What do you see
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